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I love being with my friends over anything in this world, i havn't known them all long but i just love being able to talk to them, just to chill and laugh our days and nights away. i dont like having enemies or people against me. No one is going to read this anyways so I will ramble to myself: I'm not making effort, unless effort is made with me. I'm always the one that makes effort and i don't feel like its ever returned. Thoughts on Discrimination: I personally believe that anyone has the right to look, and be however they choose to. No one has to conform to what is considered "normal" if they choose to take a different path. I've learned that no matter what a person looks like, a person is a person! No matter what their sexual orientation, skin color, hair color, style, or anything is, we are all people. It's best to place your own feet in someone Else's shoes before making quick judgments about them. And in the end, the only judgments that really mean anything were the ones that were made wisely, not quickly. The struggles i have gone through almost everyday have made me the person i am today.i know what its like to stand in a battle field without a shield, i know what its like to have wounds that will never be completely healed.keep strong, head raised high nothing is worth one final good-bye.however, i will never deny that there are things that bring you to your knees and make it hard to stumble back up with ease.those moments when you are caught biting your tongue till it bleeds are the times when you realize exactly what you need to do to succeed.cruel cruel world, why am i here? please give me an answer perfectly clear.this wheel is getting so hard to never know what its like to be thirsty until you have been to a desert,and you never know what its like to be in love unless you get hurt.your life is all based on a decision, a vision of what makes you take that next breath keeping you away from cerebral death.when it all come down to it we only live for ourselves, we are our own saviors. we will act with different behaviors,some cry,get high,lie or even die trying to make the vision a reality fearing any abnormality they might encounter.pain only makes you sane,mistakes are meant to entertain. im no longer ashamed of my decisions for the better or worse.for everything i have done has immersed me. i walked down the plank my last step almost took,i glanced back for one last life flashed before me, i am much stronger than you see,people may look,act,dress the same.but the one thing that you can never doubt is the past you have lived through to tell story's about. i am not of weak stature, Reality is a crutch for people who can't handle drugs.for you see Whether drugs lead to illumination or degradation depends on the spirit in which one takes them. I also talk a lot...if you haven't noticed.... Also things about me,that you do not know,but will know now. I smoke alot of weed,I am vegan,and I draw alot .. I have my best friend's here,Famdai,Bubbles and chrish,they have stuck with my this far,and I hope they will be with me a long time. I always like to meet nice new people who can be themselfs around me without lies, and I like being immature every now and then or serious conversations over anything like society or personal hobbies.. I hate it when i lend people things or money or 'pay me back later' and they don't give it back or not pay back, it's just disrespectful. I don't need your judging on who iam. I hate it when I have to state the obvious too many times or repeat myself to get it through some thick heads. I have no need of your fucking lies. Im not here to impress you so if you don't like the way iam, good for you, stfu, keep it to your self. thank you. i always got my mates backs and they got mine. my life is totally different from yours.

I just thought that I would put this,cause I felt like say in it.
  • Listening to: The voices in my head
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  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
So I am whipped....for the first time.
And yeah I'm in high school,and yeah it
probaly won't last forever,but yeah I am
still gonna love him.
He makes my life worth living...and I am
sure everyone says that,but it's my time
to say it,lol...sooo...
I have been alright...I'm OK.

Also,heres for all the fans of justin beiber
when Justin Beiber goes through puberty his career is over
Just thought you should know....
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Could'nt think of a title...
So they got me jacked up on meds. Some times I can't tell
if I am hearing voices or if thats the teachers standing in front of me,lol.
BUts fine with me,I feel great,even tho Im doped up....
so yea
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I feel lost in my own life
Treading water just to keep from slipping under
I wonder if I where I am supposed to be
Tired of trying to do it right
My dreams are just too far away to see.

I am going through a tough time,so any support would
be greatly apprciated.

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  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
I was sent to a mental home for 7 days,I am back now.
Long story
The end
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9 things i hate about everyone. Enjoy.

1. people who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... i know where my watch is pal, wheres yours?? Do i point to my crotch while asking where the toilet is.

2. people who are willing to get up and search the whole house just because they refuse to walk to the tv and change the channel manually.

3.When people say 'Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too'. ah yer!What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4.When people say 'it's always the last place you look'. Of course it is. Why on earth would you keep looking after you've found it?

5.When people say while watching a film 'did you see that?'. No Loser, I paid $9 to come to the cinema and stare at the floor

6.People who ask 'Can I ask you a question?'... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7.When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8.When people say 'life is short'. What !!! life is the longest thing anyone ever does. What can you do thats longer.

9.When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks 'Has the bus come yet?'. If the bus came would I be standing here.



1. Only in
America......can a pizza get to your house faster than an ambulance.

2. Only in America......are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink.

3. Only in drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

4. Only in people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a DIET coke.

5. Only in banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.

7. Only in we use answering machines to screen calls and then have call waiting so we won't miss a call from someone we didn't want to talk to in the first place.

8.Only in we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.

9. Only in we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and
'tics' meaning'bloodsucking creatures'

10. Only in they have drive-up ATM's with Braille lettering. did not notice that #6 was missing.

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?

Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor,
and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

When dog food is new and improved tasting, who tests it?

Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they
make the whole plane out of that stuff??

Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport
the terminal?

In case you needed further proof that the human race is doomed through stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer goods:

On a Sears hairdryer: Do not use while sleeping. ( that's the only time I have to work on my hair).

On a bag of Fritos:! ..You could be a winner! No purchase necessary.
Details inside. (the shoplifter special)?

On a bar o f Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would be how???....)

On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but, it's "just" a suggestion).

On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down." (well...duh, a bit late, huh)!

On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot after heating." (...and you thought????...)

On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (but wouldn't this save me moretime?)

On Boot's Children Cough Medicine: "Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication." (We could do a lot to reduce the rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with head-colds off those forklifts.)

On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and.. .I'm taking this because???....)

On most brands of Christmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only." (as opposed to...what?)

On a Japanese food processor: "Not to be used for the other use." (now, somebody out there, help me on this. I'm a bit curious.)

On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a newsflash)

On Japanese knife: "Keep out of children." (Wow, that never occured to me.)

On an American Airlines packet of nuts: "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts." (Step 3: maybe, Delta?)

On a child's superman costume: "Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly." (I don't blame the company. I blame the parents for this one.)

On a Swedish chainsaw: "Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands." (..was there a lot of this happening somewhere?)
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  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
I know I don't up-date alot,but I just don't know what to say...sooo

Life continues to be a flaming pile of suck with the occasional upbeat moment. There's a few brief moments when I STOP DROP AND ROLL hard enough to quell the flames of suck... if only for a moment.

Soo I need to get better and GTFO this place,run away and be free or some thing.

Anyways,still having trouble with math,and guess what,my reputaion is back again,I keep
getting fucking detentions,I mean I thought 2 wasnt bad in the 2 weeks I been there,BUT apparently it is. Ugh. And I am having boy problems/girl probs. and family probs.
So yeah!!!

And art,well UGHHH!

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  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
Sooo,I started public school again...and problems at home have gotten worse...
And I suck at math and have home work and its pissing me off,anyone good at it?
  • Listening to: "White" Promo - Charlotte Hatherley
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  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
Happy new years!
I dont have much to say,cause well idk what im going to change about myself.
I have changed alot,but yah.
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I seen Avatar on x-mas in 3D it was amazing,I love this movie more than angus,thongs and perfect snogging,it was awesome,and like the characters are soo cool looking and hot,lol. It makes you want to be the alien things(idr what there called) and theres a part where there are ahses and in 3d its like you could grab it in front of your face,it was amazing,I am soo saving my money up to buy this on DVD,it was LAWLS,and we got pulled over before the movie so we missed like 10 mins of the starting :( but it was awesome,and OMG,go see it,I highly recommend this movie! And angus,thongs and perfect snogging,lol. And I got my first ipod,and it wasnt stolen and it works,so Yay!!!.
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  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
Okay okay okay okay,I have never loved a movie this much in my life,you have to watch it,go watch it right now!! Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging,seriously NOW!!!
oh and happy x-mas
  • Reading: what I am typing
  • Watching: Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging
  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
[x] smoked.
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[ ] bought porn.
[x] tried drugs


[x] taken painkillers.
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend (only to protect them)
[x] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal (all the bloody time XD)
[x] hurt someone (yes... not very proud of it...)
[x] wished someone to die
[x] seen someone die


[x] missed curfew (what curfew?)
[x] stayed out all night (FUCK YA!)
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist (seeing one now)
[ ] received a ticket
[x] been to rehab(long story)
[x] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident.
[x] been to a club.
[x] been to a bar


[x] been to a wild party
[x ] been to a Mardi Gras parade(with my sister,so awesome!!)
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[x] wore black nail polish
[x] wore arm bands.
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap (FUCK YES!)
[x ] owned a 50 Cent CD.


[x] dressed gothic (friends did it)
[x] dressed girly
[x] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[x] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[x] blacked out (lol yes)
[x] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbor


[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert (Oh FUCK YES!)
[x] dry-humped someone
[] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[x] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house (... lmao)
[x] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] seen an R-rated movie in theater.
[x] cruised the mall.
[x] skipped school.
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[x] gone to court.
[x ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire
[x] lied about your age.


[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house.
[x] broke the law in the police's presence (lol, it was funny)
[ ] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[x] got in trouble with the police.
[x] talked to a stranger (Every fuckin' day XD)
[x] hugged a stranger
[x] kissed a stranger.
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed.
[x] been verbally harassed.


[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online.
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence. (alot)
[x] drank and drove.
[x] prank-called someone
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex (lol ya =3)
[x] cheated on a test (a couple times)


If You Have Less Than 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [I should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [I should be dead
  • Listening to: Nobody - Wonder Girls
  • Reading: what I am typing
  • Watching: My computer screen
  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
Okay,well I am back from my drama-filled long,boring,insane trip that took 3 days,lol.
I am not going into details as none of you want to know,lol.
Just telling you guys im alive(sigh),lol.
and happy christmas...or whatever you celebrate.
  • Listening to: Nobody - Wonder Girls
  • Reading: what I am typing
  • Watching: My computer screen
  • Drinking: Starving of no water :(
I hate BOYS! UGH! This dood that liked me alot,is trying to make me jealous! and its working and its pissing me off,and my best friend is taking his side AGAIN,well...he is her not real brother so,I guess thats OK. And I may be over-reacting,probaly am,but it feels good to rant.
ANd shes all like Well you made him feel like this with andrew,well I never had andrew,and all I did was put Andrew at my house,or im going to andrews on my status,is that so sexual?
no its not,I didnt put "oh me and andrew are sucking face at his house" which is NOT true,we didnt even kiss, we just cuddled :(. So I dont think that should make him jealous,I didnt even put we cuddled,UGH! and now he has a girlfriend,and is like Oh well dont you wish you kissed me,well buddy I dont,and im glad I didnt so fuck off(just ranting). Ugh,so I had to get this off my chest,and I am going to the hotel this weekend,and I got this awesome swim suite and it looks great on me,but guess what,only familys gonna be there,whoo hoo(not),I hate my family,there a bunch of low educated bastards who cant keep there hands to themselves and think there all that!! UGH,I hate this weekend,Im not gonna be excited,and I have to play the piano for a bunch of old people,sounds fun! So im going to stop ranting now,before I get into how much I hate myself!! Thanks for reading if you did,and sorry for wasting 5 mins of your life!
  • Listening to: Black Eyed Peas - Meet Me Halfway
  • Reading: what I am typing
  • Watching: My computer screen
  • Drinking: Jones-tis the bestest
So,IM getting more depressed right when I was getting better,and when im depressed I dont eat. And its all because of stupid boys,that is why  I hate boys,I wish there was a girl around here who I could love and be happy with,but theres not,just a bunch of stuck up rich stragight girls! I hate it here,I hate my life,and I hate everyone!!! Here!
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: what I am typing
  • Watching: My computer screen
  • Drinking: Jones-tis the bestest
Soo,I had a nervous meeting with a mental home today,and
I am not going(sadness,I hate it here) but I am getting into
more therapy so we can pay them money just to tell me what I already
know. Oh well. And I am on MORE meds. WHoo Hoo(sarcastic). And AND!
I may have gotten my best friend back!! Suh-weetness...and and,no more
abuse!! :D So uber yay! The only bad thing is I am fat cause
there still force feeding me,but im going to gymnastics every wednesday

Anyone can do this thing,if you do post it cause I wanna read it,lolz

What's the best part about being single?
You can flirt

Has someone ever called you at midnight on your birthday?

Do you think you will ever be married?
I don't know

What was the last movie you watched?
Frog princess

Do you laugh a lot?
No,I normally make other people laugh.

Do you like to hold hands?
Yeah I guess

Spell your name without an L:

What do you have to say about the second person on your top?
She's my best friend,and I could'nt live without her.

Do you like your hair?

What's on your wrist right now?

Ever gotten yourself into a confusing situation?
Of course

What do you miss most about your past?
Being a little kid and happy.

The person you have feelings for shows up at your house, what do you say?
Oh hey...wanna go make-out?just kidding...sorta.

Does anyone like you?
I don't know

Do you want to be in a relationship with someone?

Have you ever liked someone who didn't like you back?

When was the last time you had butterflies?
When I was in d-town

I bet you miss somebody right now...?

Have you kissed anyone in '09 that actually meant anything?

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?

When is the next time you’ll kiss someone?
New years

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
All the time

Who's the last person who passed you a note in class?
No one

Has anybody on your top ever admitted to liking you?

Who was the last person you hung out with?

What are some things about the person you have feelings for?
He's perfect,atheletic,hot,smart,talented...all the things I'm not.

Why aren't you with the person you like?
Cause he lives far away and thinks I dont like him.

Are you still friends with that one person who has hurt you the most?

Have you held hands with the opposite sex today?

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes,3 chances is the best

Want someone back in your life?

Who was the last person you physically hit?
My dad

Do you remember your very first kiss?

Have you ever kissed anyone with the name starting with a D, A, or J?

Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Kinda,only cause I get nervous,lol

Are there things in your life you'll never get over?

Do you think things will change in the next few months?

Name one person you wish you could fix things with:
My mother

Who's the last person you waved at?
My cat...funny story to that....

Could you last in a relationship for over a year?

When was the last time you completely broke down?
few days ago

Is there that one person on your mind right now?

Is it hard to hold your tears in at times?

Will this weekend be a good one?

Does being in love make you nervous?

Was your last kiss laying down, sitting down, or standing up?
sitting...sorta. I was on the bed and he was sitting up...

The person you had the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
I would care alot,and I would go into a deep depression...

Your girlfriend/​​​​boyfriend buys you flowers, you say?
aww babes thanks,and give him a kiss.

Was this the best summer of your life?
No,but this summer should be good.
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  • Reading: what I am typing
  • Watching: My computer screen
  • Drinking: Jones-tis the bestest
SoooOoooOoo...Guess what!?!
I might get to do gymnastics competitions again!!
They took me out cause of the weight thing,but I
am getting better now,so there gonna let me go back
in!!!This may not seem like a big deal for you,but
it is for me,I HAD to tell you...
and I got some picture's from the hip hop competition
I will upload in a bit. Hope your having a awesome day!!
OOOOH and AND AND I went the largest christmas store every!
Bronners...or some thing like that,and it was awesome...
but exspensive...50 dollars for one bulb thing,and it
was plain,I know wtf!...anyways....BLARGSHPERISHNEQUAW!
  • Listening to: Icarly
  • Reading: what I am typing
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  • Drinking: Jones-tis the bestest
Answer about me or an OC ina note =3 or if your brave :P put inot a comment XD

● I died:I would cry
● I kissed you:on the lips?
● I fell:Help u up then push u back down and laugh(thats what friends do?)
● I lived next door to you:Do pranks on our other neighbors together,lol.
● I showed up at your house unexpectedly:Omg,awesome,lets go play video games!
● I stole something:What did u steal? can we eat it?
● I was murdered:I will find that bitch and keel him
● I cried:I would tell you its OK and you will get through it.
● I asked you to marry me:Sure
● I was hospitalized:Well we would be there toegther.

~What do you think about my~

● Personality:I think you have a great personality,and you see things other people dont.
● Eyes:idk,never seen them :(
● Hair:sounds awesome
● Family:Sounds like they dont help you out much
● Smile:Possibly gorgeous,you need to post pics!

~Would you~

● Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?Yes
● Keep a secret if i told you one?Yes
● Hold my hand?Yes
● Study with me?Yes
● Cook for me?Yes
● Love me?Yes
● Date me?Yes
● Have sex with me?....idk

~Have you ever ~

● Lied to make me feel better?No
● Wanted to kiss me?er...maybe
● Wanted to kill me?Never
● Broke my heart?No
● Thought I was unbearably annoying?No
● Hated me?No
● Wanted to tell me something but didn't?Sorta
● Wondered about my sanity?No
● Wanted to do something to me?Some thing nice?

~More ~

● When and how did we meet?On teh internet
● Describe me in three words.understanding,smart,silly.
● What was your first impression of me?Odd,cause you wanted to talk to me,lol.
● What do you think of me now?Great friend
● What reminds you of me?My cat,cause I can talk to them,and I can talk to you.
● Could you see us together forever?Honestly no,cuz we havent met,but that would be cool.
● When's the last time you saw me?never
● Are you gonna re-post this to see what I say about you?Yeah

Thats alot of questions.
I tag :~dragonlisa2:
and :genrechowderstudios:
and thats all,cause there the only active friends on here. And there awesome!!!
  • Listening to: Lady GaGa - So happy I could die
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  • Drinking: Jones-tis the bestest
Okay chikies,I dont up-date tooo much,so yeah,lolz.
My life is still pretty blah,but I'm trying to get better
with all of this stupid stuff.
I am getting my hair coloured this weekend,or today,idk yet.
So I will take a picture of my uglieness for you ^_^.
And theres ALOT of snow here,there always is,its sooo awesome.
I made a asian snowwoman and shes part dood,its awesome,lolz
  • Listening to: Lady GaGa - So happy I could die
  • Reading: what I am typing
  • Watching: My computer screen
  • Drinking: Jones
I got tagged,suh-weet

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

1.I secretly like watching nature(omg,I know so weird right!?!)
2.I am making a gingerbread castle
3.We pay someone to tell me everyday im crazy,I already know that,lol
4.We decorated our x-mas tree,its awesome
5.I am moving?
6.I like hatsune miku,I want blue hair.
7.I breath air DOH!
8.I like melon...
9.Im weird?
10.Imma go watch meh some spongebob!!

I tagged.
:icongenrechowderstudios: Yes I know tag backs,but idc

Thanks to my bestie :icongenrechowderstudios:  I know how to add icons :D

OOOH and update on  meh life,Im still being monitored and shit,but I might have a lover,but its uh..complicated,lolz.
  • Listening to: Len Kagamine - Love Is War
  • Reading: what I am typing
  • Watching: My computer screen
  • Drinking: H2o